Jan 23 2012
Resolutions and the like…
Life seems to disappear pretty quickly. I always loved the Modest Mouse lyric, “on this life that we call home
the years go fast and the days go so slow…” That tends to sum up so much.
The past year flew by so quickly, but I remember periods of boredom in there. Hard to believe it now that we’re 23 days into the new year. It also shows I’m 23 days late in making my first blog entry of the year.
The blog…heh…well, I used to blog religiously back in the olden days, then Facebook came along…but I don’t really learn much from looking back on status updates. I prefer preserving my memories in long-winded monologues that only a blog can provide. When the new year started, that was my sole resolution, to blog more. We’ll see how it goes. It’s only been 5 months since the last one.
The change, I believe, will come from it becoming a more self-centered venture. Before it was a game of “Let’s Pretend!” Which means that I wrote it with hope someone would care about my music enough to read it and comment. I don’t really foresee that becoming an issue in the near future, if ever. What is funny is that I tend to make music for personal satisfaction and don’t concern myself too much with the whole “industry” angle. I share the music beyond my area, but honestly, I don’t lead a lifestyle that would lend itself to nonstop travelling and various other aspects it takes to be a successful musical entity. And that is before talent comes into play, which is marginal, at best.
Blogging, for me, is done very free-form. I just from idea to idea as they pop in my head and stop when I feel I’ve said enough, even if a thought isn’t completely fleshed out. Structure is wonderful, but in this instance, it would only detract from the point, which is to see where I’m at for a specific moment.
Where am I at? Man, life is going pretty good for me. My life is full of love and happiness. I have my bouts of depression, but that is the price you pay for having a great deal of good in your life. The fear of losing it makes the valleys deeper. You survive though and those happy moments make the doubt totally worth it…besides, if you didn’t have the fear, I don’t believe the happiness would be as strong.
I vividly recall 14 years ago this month, standing in my bedroom beating tunes out of my Rickenbacker I’d just spent most of my scholarship money on. My gigs in my head were never stadium shows, just a room full of enthusiastic folks getting lost in the music. I’d program my stereo to a setlist of various rock, punk and alt country songs, then play along for hours. I’d jump around, create new parts to play with the songs and just have a blast. I’d sing backup vocals or mimic the lead. The whole time, in my head, there was a small room of wild concert-goers sharing the experience and the happiness. To think that I get to experience that now, outside of my head, is a treat and totally humbling.
The funny thing is, my little girl is turning 13 this week. I thought that dream had died when she came along, followed 17 months later by her brother. I wasn’t sad about it…seeing their faces created a new dream where I could still strum some tunes, but honestly, how would I be in a band or anything with a baby? I ended up selling off my beloved Rickenbacker and amps a couple years later to buy diapers and pay rent. So is the story for a lot of aspiring artists…no matter what skill level they’re at.
The joy is, my kids loved music like I did and my wife was the same way. We’re all very musically based people. It is rare there is not something playing in the background as we move through this life. They have been a great support in trying to get the music flowing through me again. They love going to shows, seeing other bands, singing along with me, etc.
So, there is a little run through days past and bringing me to this week’s thought. I’m getting older, but still moving forward. There isn’t a good reason around to stop trying to fulfill your dreams. My baby girl will be 13, I’m about to be 33 and things are moving forward in a positive way. This year will be a good one. I have my wife that loves me, our girlfriend that loves me, 2 kids that love me, friends that love me, family that loves me and more. You can’t be sad when your life is filled with love.
It has been 48 hours since my 32nd birthday. Normally people lament the day they officially grow older, but for me, I’ve always enjoyed it. A day to look back and to enjoy what you’ve done so far in life. This blog isn’t so much about what has been going on lately, which is next to nothing, but to chronicle some of the great moments of my 32nd year of existence. Here they are:
7. Got to celebrate 2 years of rocking it with Huke Green. Seriously, I don’t think I’d be doing much of anything musically these days if I hadn’t met him. Most all of these musical accomplishments were achieved playing with Huke. It definitely made it a lot more enjoyable. We also did a lot with Nathan Taylor, who is another person I am insanely lucky to have in my life.
I’ve been neglecting the ol’ blog again. It’s alright, no one reads it anyways, but still, it’s good to stick to the routines. Something as simple as chronicling the mundane activities of your life can lead to getting the creative spark back in action.
Now we’ll jump back to the prior weekend…a trip to Austin for a show at the Parlor.

The beginning of the year always starts off slow. Everyone is sluggish from the holiday season, the weather isn’t condusive to travelling and money is a little tighter from the revelry that closes out the year. With all of that out of the way, we packed up and headed out the Texas Hill Country for a weekend of music.
We got to the hotel to see the “no vacancies” sign lit up, which wasn’t a worry on the room since we had reservations, but at the 3-story hotel, a late arrival usually means a lot of stairs to unload the van. On this night, however, we were met with a room on the first floor with a loading zone right outside the door. Good fortune shined once again!
Now to the important part, the show at the Auslander. We hadn’t played at the Auslander since summer 2009 and that show was sparcely attended, at best. It was a gig with a guarantee that covered most of the costs of the trip, so you can’t complain about that, but I was hoping things would be different this time…and they were!
Last time I visited my wonderful blog, I was embarking on the solo career and Huke was starting a new band called Huke Green and the True Roots Union with the final dudes we tried to keep The Wayward Sons kicking with. Kind of a Son Volt/Wilco deal without the animosity.
Sometimes you have to shake things up to keep life interesting and that’s just what happened here in the past few weeks.
Here I sit looking at a calendar with the number 2011 on it. It’s almost a sad moment to see 2010 go, it was a fine year.
The wonderful thing about neglecting a blog is knowing that you’ve been doing enough living to take away the time for reflection. But, as I believe, reflection is an important thing in the human life. Sure, you could spend your entire time moving forward, but I think that opens you up for failure. We all need to sit back and remember what we’ve done and where we’ve been. This is my opportunity to do that.
We played our first show as a 5-piece at Mango’s and got offered a bi-weekly gig there, so I guess we did SOMETHING right when we played there. Then, due to Nathan being out on the town with the Eric Brendan Band, we did a 4-piece show at Texas Tavern in Cypress with the Captain Legendary Band.
By the end of the set, I’d sweated through my shirt and had a sick feeling for a while due to getting so overheated…which is a GOOD thing. It means I didn’t leave anything behind on the stage. I did the best I could, as did the rest of the guys. It was a moment of pride for me to play such a killer set. The response was good, as well.
Let’s see, what’s been going recently. What landmark moments could I touch on to make the blog more interesting. Hmmm…
The Wayward Sons are a 5-piece now! Oh, and the Harbingers of Happiness will now be the name of the acoustic albums The Wayward Sons do. Playing with Drag the River (Jon and Chad duo show) made us realize you should pick a name and run with it. So, it’s all Wayward now!